Wow. A different day

Some personal stuff shadowed the morning.
I'm kinda too scared about outcomes to talk about it.
Didn't sell it all. There was a new baker at the market that did.
Sigh. Shortening and Margarine.
But now. I'm kinda sick. Gonna go lie down.

Today:
Cinnamon Streusel Bread
Marmalade Bread
Flourless Chocolate Almond Cake (Gluten Free)
Coconut Lime Custard
Whiskey Caramel Apple Bread Pudding
Double Chocolate Hazelnut Cookies
Peanut Butter Chocolate Cookies
Currant Scones
Molasses Bars

One of those days

where everything goes a bit wrong.
A couple of days ago I stumbled and fell. in the rain. on the sidewalk. in Oakland.
Skinned my knee and felt okay until the next day. Then the wrist started to swell and ache. and the arthritis in the other hand.
Ouch.
So today, I've spilled cocoa, sugar, scraped my knuckle, tripped, spilled au jus on my keyboard to the point my left mouse button ain't workin' right.
Grr. Argh.
Today is Thursday. So here's the new stuff:

Coconut Kaffir Lime fondue
Caramel Apple Bread Pudding
Fried Bananas in Palm Sugar Syrup

Recipes on request until I get all that done.

cheers!
T

I'm a ranting raving lunatic

I think I pissed off scared everyone in the kitchen on the Eve.
Man, but I do rant. Angry too.

Inside I feel like:

Outside apparently I'm:

Just about presentation on a dessert. Not critical. Not something anyone is going to remember tomorrow. But now they will. Remember my anger. My (over)reaction. And my bad attitude. Grr. Argh. There's something about single day menus that drives us all up the wall.

Must control anger since only person willing to slap me upside the head is the nsyo and she doesn't work here every night. SHE has a life. Sigh. lol. My life is here. Right now, I'm just taking it all a bit too seriously.

New Idol: food whore.

Time for a martini or three.

Thank you for being my audience

It means a lot to me to have you listen to what I have to say.

Thank you.

I don't really know where to start

the last four weeks have been a huge huge blur.
The first market was pretty cool. Very local small town feel. Lots of regulars from the little place came by in support. Majorly cool.

The second was totally different. Lots of people a bit more upscale suburban feel.
However, both were quite cold. Lovely October.

The reception of my product line is better than tepid -- not redhot. Somewhere in between. A couple of products have hit a hot button. Others I'm going to have to tweak. I get the feeling that organic pastry is an education...

Some people think it's going to take like whole wheat flaxseed seven grain no sugar added bread. It's not whole grain (usually). It's not "good for you". It's just better for you that fully refined bleached sugar and finely processed cake flour.

I think I can do this. I just have to relax and breathe...

The relationship stuff that goes along with it is a different story. With all the stress it feels like I just can't say or do anything that isn't in the wrong tone or with the wrong words. Especially to handsome.
It's a royal B (or does that mean I am) that we treat those we love the most the worst at times.

I can only hope it continues to get better.

Recipes used:
Brown Sugar Zucchini Bread
Thumbprint cookies: coconut with ginger jam, pecans with blueberry jam, walnuts with fig jam.
Roasted Peanut Fudge Cookies
Brown Sugar Walnut Cookies
Double Chocolate Hazelnut with Cranberries
Cranberry Orange Bread
Maple Drop Cookies
Persimmon Cookies
Pumpkin Cookies
Applesauce Bread
Persimmon Pecan Bread
Citron Bread
Cinnamon Tangerine Bread
Almond Plum Oat Bread
Molasses Bars
Currant Scones

I am so sick

Fever over 100. The restaurants is making desserts daily and I just can't get out of bed long enough to stand, let alone do brulees. Life hurts today...

I ran away from home today...

and wrote a nice long post about it that got deleted and has been recreated without the panache of the first post.
Sigh.
I don't suppose it was truly running away as I took nsyo with me.
We went to see the river otters at the aquarium. There's something about they way they fluidly move through the water, the way they cuddle and play, the way they rip flesh off of fish with those pointy, little teeth. It's all just damned amazing.
So we had to go check it out.
And then I *had* to drag the nyso off with me to Carmel for food.
First thing I noticed was that there is now a chain restaurant on Ocean Ave. Oh my. And a chain beauty store. This is a bit different than letting Saks in... Right?
And then, to drive by and realize that the restaurant I loved was gone. Sad but true and turns out its been gone awhile. New place called La Bicyclette that is owned by the same people that have Corkscrew in the Valley and Casanova. Interestingly enough, they owned that cafe in the 70s -- but that's another story.
This one is about where we went instead. Cantinetta Luca is a bit closer to Ocean Ave and seemed new.
Turns out it was quite a bit newer than we thought and sister restaurant to L'auberge Carmel.
We sat at the chef's counter and had a fun night. A bit of prosecco, a bit of dolcetto, a bit of food and cheese. A very well put together tiramisu (in a cup, all equal layers each 1/2 inch thick. Hmmmm....) and then a lazy tired drive bay to the Bay.
All in all, I'd go there again. But since it took me three years this time....

So, we chose